njsfirth

http://www.voober.com/shangri-la-episodes/shangri-la-episode-1/

Another awesome one.


This years Anime is rocking my socks.

THIS.IS.BASKETBALLLLLLLL


http://www.voober.com/basquash-episodes/basquash-episode-1/

Wedding Crashers is a fun movie.

It's full of dumb jokes but has real heart there somewhere.

omnomnom mars bars are delicious

but i feel better


she did mean a lot


but i have friends


i still don't know.

I honestly have no idea what to do anymore.

She knows how i feel about her, she knows she means the world to me, she knows there is nothing more i want than to be with her.

She knows that i have crippling paranoia, that i can't help that no matter what i do.

So refusing to tell me something because you think its going to save me is not gonna help, it's making things way, way worse.

My brain is way, way worse than you can ever imagine. It's not a lack of trust in you its a lack of belief in myself. I don't believe i am good enough. I don't believe i ever will be good enough. It's not your fault, it's my fault, my lack of self belief, my lack of confidence.


Even if it is something you think will hurt me, tell me. I'm stronger than you think and who knows, i'm very forgiving. Especially for people i've fallen for. Head over heels.

Getting offended just hurts me more, disappearing kills me.

I honestly do not know what to say.

I just wish things were easier.


....

I wish i could set sail on the sea and become a pirate living carefree, sometimes.

Where i have nothing to do.

I like these days, when i'm at work, it means i get paid to do nothing.

When i am at home i wish i had something to do though.

I have things i probably SHOULD do but no motivation to do them.

The Office US is the best version.

Adddddicted.

literally.

Kid Cudi is pretty awesome

Futurama is awesome.

The Gurren Lagann OST is amazing.

Not much happened today, amusing day at work.


Ghetto Musick.

So, here i am back at the old 9 to 5(12 to 8 today actually) and once again the shop is dead. It feels like i'm working in a crypt.

I've been texting lovergirl again, seems she'll be back online room, thats good. I've missed sitting at the computer staring at an empty MSN window wondering what to say to make her move closer to me, alas i have a talent for getting girls naked, but apparently not the ones that i want to get serious with. Weird how that works. I think i've fallen arse over tit for this beauty. Its terrifying, honestly.

I don't really know what to do about the situation and work makes it worse because i have nothing better to do than standing there thinking about her.

And after a week of loafing around doing nothing i am back at work tomorrow.


Fun fun fun.


You'll probably get a bunch of hate filled messages on here during the week.

I updated my website today.


http://losingvictoriously.com

and my portfolio

http://www.enefisenough.com

Kronks new groove makes me wanna dance, hahaha.